Poem (written by me): Killin’ Me
(to adam, cody and all my ex’s) you took my heart, pulled itin two. i dont wanna live without you. you killed me inside and out, but i wont just sit and pout.
you made me laugh, you made me smile. i should have known it was only for a while.
i miss you so much the pain is numbing, back to me youl never be comeing.
my legs weaken as you walk in the door. why wont you love me anymore?
you made me belive you were the one. I, Darkness, you, the Sun.
ditching me for her! That hurt so bad! I should be mad but really im just crushed that you would let it go that far. i want to be hit by a car just to heal my inner pain! I burst a vain, my arms dreched in blood. you left me behind in the mud.
(to cody) youl always be fine, a favorit brother of mine. I’ll just lay here where the sun dont shine. I cant belive i let you hurt me so much! You pulled on the stepped and pulled on the clutch.
i see you in the hall, i find you in the mall! i cant get away, but theres no way ill stay!
(to adam and cody)you said you’d be there! you said you’d always care! god i hate life without you with me! but i guess the key is just to see that you and me wernt ment to be.
Poem By Me To Cody, My “Big Brother”
you said it was me and you agenst the world, when i was curled up on your lap. i should have known it was all just crap.
why did you lie? pretend to cry… my heart now has to shy away from you. do you know how many stitches i had to sew?! I see you and your girlfriend koo all over eachother in frount of my face! Did you really think i could just get replaced?! You played me! Betrayed me! I’m hurt, cut, and alone. as if your heart is made of stone, you dont pick up your phone.
even though you hurt me inside, even though you dont know how much iv cryed… ill always be here to help you. cuts and bruises, im the one who looses. because i lost someone like anyother… my big brother….
Poem (written by me): Together Were A Wreck
you and me
were not ment to be
feel my pain?
no, you cant even feel the rain
are you heartless?
no, just a mess
why do i stay?
well, I’m not okay
do i want your love?
or just to be sent to the above?
if you really care
you’l be willing to share
i wish i was good enough
you just want me to be plain and tuff
my heart in pices
youl keep on eating your reeces
do you want me gone?
am i just an extra pon?
making me depressed
I’m way over stressed
your killing me here
your heart isnt even near
i thought you cared
well…
i guess i just wasnt prepared
Poem (written by me): For My True Friends
Were best friends
We always will be
And i hope you see me
even in a croud
staring up at you
so happy, so proud
a standing ovation
our undieing education
our “love” will last
even with our shitty pasts
we will stand together
threw the worst of weather
shinning on top
or just mangey slop
your my best friend
til the very end
Poem (written by me): When Adam Hurt Me
people say dont you say you wont. I say I’m fine but inside im die’n. you tell me lies, i break out in cries. iv been so used, youve been abused. please just choose to love or leave me. why cant you see me standing in the rain in pain. I screamed your name but you still never came. why cant you see i just wanna be left alone now that youve shown me who you are. but weve come so far. I just want to cry, sit down and die! With a razor to my arm, please dont show alarm twards me or ill flee. from the terrible beast within. when did i sin so much to earn such bad luck?! fuck! Appart, or together we suck! But i love you so much ill need a krutch just to stand next to your side. i may have shied away last year, but that was the past. yes i moved so fast on this last date, but i thought we were fate! your brown stunning eyes captivate me threw your lies. Ill smoke off the pain, but I’m still going insain! I know your vain but please don’t lead me down this lane! my heart is like a glass vase, if you don’t keep your pace I’ll drop and break. You think I’m fake!? Well how about that snake who took your verginity!? Treat her like a pretty kitty and me like a whore!? Am I nothing more? What happened to the kiss by the lockers? What happened to knocking the shit out of my stalkers? I opened my heart to you, and now its falling appart. You left me here fucked up all because your a big suck up! You never changed your just rearanged! What happened to our love!? what happened to going beyond and above?! You push and shove my emotions around! I’m lost, never to be found! I thought i was safe and sound in your arm… You used all your charms. I’m done! I’m threw! But I’ll never get over you…
i love this song…
if you listen to the words, and youve ever went threw heart break, it may make you cry. its so truthul, and so beautiful.
